Dear Heartless Soul !!!

How this sounds to you ? I think is proper if I called you heartless soul, since you ask me to put this in :). Is 5.44 a.m, and I can't believe this shit I have to write for you. You are going to turn my blog to your personal blog ? Do you want me to put a private permission for you only ? Lolxx.

First Off, please don't say thanks to me. I think if I calculate you've said at least 20 thanks before you send me home that night. I should thank you that night for sharing with me and keeping me safe from your lousy driving skills :) I'm sorry that I was too sleepy to actually really talk to you as my brains wasn't fully functioning and at least I did fulfill my promise to blog it out okay ? . Well... I'm a bit surprise to actually meet you back since is been hmm..how long ? 7 years ? Can't really remember. You've changed to be a big girl :p But still too thin :p

This is my second post I'm dedicating for someone, and not for myself. The other one was for a good friend of mine. And now you. Actually I'm just wondering why is it so hard for us to satisfy ourselves. Sometimes when talking to you actually make me quite sad that you actually think like that. Life is just unfair, have you heard of this, the rich got richer, the poor got poorer. Same concept in life. You just have to fight hard for this. Kinda hard typing this out as you ask me not to mentioned too much things. And stop bugging me in MSN now :p You're about to leave Malaysia for 2 months. Please don't come back. Meeting you once is a disaster which is greater than tsunami. And please don't ever ever cry in front of me. I don't like it. Is one of my weakness actually.

Hmm.. As I said you make me sad when you actually think like that. You can't judge 2 guys to hate millions of good guys out there. I think all the guys agree with me right :p, Just because these 2 assholes fuck your life up, doesn't mean that all guys are not good. If all guys are not good, why on earth you talk to me? ..

******** : Is because I treat you as a zi mui. ---> Is Zhi Mui la.

Fine.... I got your point u ass. And don't even try coaxing me into getting on that plane with you next year :), I want to save money. But thanks for the offer thou. At least you have a point. IS FREE !!!! ... Where is it already ? Aus or Fra ? can't remember.Sorry cause you mentioned this 2 places.

Ah... Life's like that. We can't change it. Sometimes we already know what we needed to do, we just need a little reminder. I do believe that you have close friends that will give you fantastic advises. You see, I'm not good in advising people. I believe that when it's come to a topic of LIFE, I always believe is in your own hands. You control your own paths. Forget about the past if it's a bad past. I always tell my friends this. Why can't you remember the happy past where it brings you to who you are right now. And I'm really sorry to say this that your friend is stupid to betray you to go out with this playboy. Gosh... If I were last time, I would help you to fuck him up :).

You got into a little trouble. Who doesn't ? If you think that your life is miserable. I bet, your not even close. Let's not talk about me. Btw, I like what you said that night. " You got matured ". I though I always am. Well, I'm just wondering why is it hard for you to ignore other people thoughts ? I think you really have to make up your mind this time. No one can help you except yourself.

I find that you're really in-matured wanting to take your own life. Is sad to hear that my friend would want to kill themselves or run away to avoid and forget the pasts. You can't, trust me, No matter if you would go to the north pole. Is inside of you. Face it my dear friend. I'm not the person that can comment on your family issues. I can't help you to advise them on who take your younger sister. As for yourself, I think you can think who you want to follow. Is either or neither :)

Is not that God doesn't love you. Don't blame him. You should thanks him for giving you this opportunity to be matured and go thru with life. This is what people like me would say " mid-life crisis ". Haha, and I thought I was having mid life crisis, till you tell me your problems. Mine not even close. Ahh.. I remembered, Don't say I lie. But I did regret on something. Which will be the first and last. But I won't let you know what :)

You really have to be strong in this kind of situation. Don't be like me as I told you. Face it fearlessly, Don't try to ignore it. It might haunt you in the future. think about the good side. At least you're still breathing. I think the other day Celine said something very positive. I think you should learn to be like her. Thinks that you decided, don't simply changed.

I'm really sorry if I really bore you with this posts as I'm freaking sleepy right now. I need to take my rest already. I shall continue to let you know what I actually think. Since I think that is a sensitive question for you. I have your answers already :) Just don't want to blog this out as is similar to me :p Anyway, enjoy reading my blog since you're going to stuck on a plane for 6 hours I think. I'm sorry I couldn't sent you off. I have no car :) . But I do wish you safe flight :)

Anyway, I really have to take my nap now. I'm blur and sleepy. And my brain just shut down. Good night to you.

P/S : remember your question ? No matter how, We are and we will still be friends.