Sleepless Night !!!

Is late. Can't sleep. Work sucks. I was threatened to be sue today. Big deal. Fuck it no time. Lazy to write today. Have been thinking about work. Felt like there's nothing here I want. Want to leave badly and be forgotten. There's no one who understands me or perhaps I don't want anyone to understand me. Or maybe, I don't even understand myself. I'm not lost but I'm just confused what GOD wants me to do. Everything I do, but seems to me my direction keep changing. In work. In life. Same thing.

I went to my friend's dinner party. Met up with this girl which is a nurse. She used to have this crush on me. And she still has. She asked me and hinted to me. But along the way I just told her the truth. I'm tired. I do not want to go through another relationship. Too tired. I'm happy with my life. We can be friends but not more that that. But I did explain. And she accepted it.

Today nothing happen. Life is just as boring as before. Or maybe I just make my life boring as there's no such things as boring unless I myself is bored with my life. Am I ? I doubt it. Who wants to bring me to holiday ?

- I'm an Idealist. I do not know where I'm heading to. But I'm on my way. -