A long good post :)

First of all I would like to thank a friend who encourage me in caring about my other friends. Thou there's a few people who msg me this kind of things. Your msg is the best :) So hee hee...

hey i read ur blog
:) p4p3r why so emo these days
:) p4p3r beh tahan jo
:) p4p3r wheres the old ray
:) p4p3r i miss him
:) p4p3r dont be too emo ok
:) p4p3r and dont stop giving advices to me
:) p4p3r cuz they're improtant to me :D
:) p4p3r put it this way..
:) p4p3r when u advice, whether they listen or not, atleast ur advices help brighten up ppl's day by showing ur effort
:) p4p3r and also.. it makes ppl like me think rationally again

Thanks YH :) lolxx, If you need advises, I'm still always here. Will always be a friend that will guide you when things are bad. I may not be the old that can give you solutions but my ideas are kinda good i think ;p You know me. I might not be there for fun. But I'm always there when shit happens :p

Well, my second topic would be HER. I guess there's a lot of question that you guys really wanted to ask. So you guys derive a plan to ask a few people to ask bit by bit to get the whole picture :) You guys are smart. But I think you guys should just ask me the right question. :) So far only 1 person ask a bit of personal question.

So the list of question that I compiled that someone ask me.

Me||Is@ p4p3r What happen between you and your wife?
Me||Is@ p4p3r What happen to the old Raymond I know. Isn't him the happy go lucky guy.
Me||Is@ p4p3r Do you still love her ? You lost her i know is hard but can things be better?
Me||Is@ p4p3r Any chance you guys are going back together :) Keke
Me||Is@ p4p3r Will you ignore her and just leave her even as friends.i think is kind of bad if you do that.youll be hurt..like wut happen btw me and mat.

I know i deleted some of the question as is too personal for me to answer here.

So what happen between me and her is like poof. Gone. End. Shit happens but is a mutual understanding. So I guess is easy to answer that. Maybe I'm not a good bf, and I'm not the one for her. The old me hasn't changed. I'm still a happy go lucky guy as you can see that day. I'm still talking and still joking around. I know you noticed the diff but I did try to hide that side of me :) I do not want to elaborate here as is personal I told you :p
What you mean do I still love her? Of course I Do, No matter what I will still love her, as a friend and as a buddy. I did not lose her, as she's always in my heart and things are better this way as I can really see that she's really happy right now, so things are great now :) Haha... getting back together is not impossible but right now I think is not the time I guess. I can't tell you how I feel here, maybe few years time you can ask me again.
Well, I think I will never ignore her nor avoid her. She's has and always will be my priority. Of course I won't show it in front of her. I will act like she's my buddy. And, I think it doesn't matter as she really knows everything about me. She's kinda forgetful, but it doesn't matter if she forgets the things I told her coz she'll always be my best friends and buddy forever. As you all know I treat my gf like my bestest friend so we can open up and share everything. So of course, if there's any shit happens to me. I will always find her to be my consultant. :p
So yah my hope is she'll be single in the future so I will just work my way up to tell her how much she mean to me. But of course, I would also hope she'll find the right person that treat her good and love her as much as a person can be loved. As you know, as long as she's happy I am happy. I just want her to be happy :)

I think this actually open up my heart a bit to talk at least 20% of what I kept. So I think this is my first and last post talking about her. No more hidden meanings in most of my messages. This is it.

But seriously Mel, Is nice talking to you. Is been long since I chatted in mamak from 11 a.m till 6 a.m. Thanks for sharing and thanks for the ride home. We shall always be good friends. This I vow.

- Friends are like when shit happens, they turn in and offer a hand -